BC-IrishBrat1313
03-12-2007, 09:31 PM
I am posting this for some that may need a little light in large dark and lonely tunnel.
At 14 years old I was told I have PCOS. This ment nothing to me. Didn't give a care in the world. My dr said well you are going to have problem TTC. No biggy I don't want kids. I am 14!!!!!! He put me on BCPs and that was that. Then my world changed in 1996 at the age of 16 going on 17 when I met Michael. I knew he was going to be the man that I married and started a family with. If I knew then. What I know now. I wouldn't have taken the BCPs. No point. :rolleyes:
After 4/5 years of being married we said we wanted to have kids. Let's getting a move on. :) Stupid me thought that the month I stopped taking BCPs I would get pregnant. Dumb Dumb Dumb. So at my dr's appointment I mentioned to my dr we were going to start trying, but I was told we would have problems.
September 13,2002 1 year without anything. Company rules. Did it. Hoped Hoped. Nothing.
Year 2. Give me something Doc. Glucophage. What kind of crap is that? Did NOTHING for me. Gave me the poops. Fun for me. So we were on that for another year. Hoped Hoped. Nothing.
Year 3. (Feb 2005) Oh yeah...went to an RE. No OBGYN for me. We are breaking out the big guns. Valentine's Day to remember. Here comes the clomid. Had people tell me...first month there were on it they were pregnant. Oh yeah. Happy me. Popped those pills like they were candy. Stayed on the glucophage too. Hoped Hoped...pin poke on CD17...NOTHING
March (2005) Clomid again. Yeah I can do it. 100mg right. Woohooo. Luck of the Irish right? Bring it on. In goes the candy. On come the hot flashes. Man these suck. I am a big gal. I am hot to begin with. Hoped Hoped..pin poke CD17...Nothing.
April (2005) Clomid again. 150mg. That's the big one. That's the one you hear about. Women get pregnant off of this dosage. Yeah it's going to be my easter present you watch. I am going to have a egg fall. Popped my candy. Freaking hotter than hell...Hoped Hoped..pin poke cd17...NOTHING.
May (2005) Clomid afreakinggain. 200mg. This time...let's add dexamethasone. Suppose to break down your thick walls. Oh yeah...my dr knows what he's doing. Give me my pills. Popped my candy. Can I get a glass of ice water? Hoped Hoped...pin poke cd17...NOTHING
June (2005) Guess what? Clomid again! 250mg w/ dexamethasone. Hell it didn't work last month I am sure it will work this month. :rolleyes: Give me the pills before I kill you. Popped my candy. Sweating my ass off..it's freaking summer...who wants hot flashes and evil mood swings...I do I do. :fuming: Hoped Hoped...pin poke CD17...NOTHING
July(2005) That's it. Can't take it any more, but yes it's....clomid again. 250mg w/ dexamethason. Why give it to me again when it didn't work the pervous month. My dr has balls of steel! Bring on the hot flashes. Popped my candy. Hoped Hoped...pin poke CD17 NOTHING!
August (2005) :bow INJECTIONS! This is it. This is MY MONTH! Repronex. 1 amp every other day. Poking. Poking. Poking. Bloodwork...more Poking Poking HCG TRIGGER! I am going to ovulate for the first time in my life! Wooohooo! Hope Hope...pin poke CD20...NOTHING. :bawl: :banghead: I want to die. HCG trigger makes you ovulate right? Not me. :bawl:
September(2005) Hope is lost. Injections again. 2amps every other day. Poking Poking Poking. Bloodwork and u/s....Nothing. No effect. Cycle Cancel. :bawl:
October (2005) Why try? I look like a druggy. Veins are all messed up. Fighting with DH. Life just sucks. Injections...again. 3amps every other day. It's like injecting mapel syurp in my butt. Poking Poking Poking. Bloodwork u/s....more Poking something is going on...Poking Poking. U/S...cycle cancel. Nothing :bawl: .
November (2005) I am doing this, because I like the torture. Injections 1amp everyday...humm something different. Poking Poking Poking (I use to hate needles) Bloodwork...u/s....ooooh ooooh. Something Something! Hcg Trigger....Hope is coming back. Hoping Hoping...pin poke CD19 I FREAKING OVULATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wait Wait Wait....BFN. I don't care I OVULATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December (2005) We decided that if this month doesn't work. We are taking a break. We are starting to forget what sex for fun is. I can't remember a time when my butt was white and not black and blue. Injections....2amps everyday. Poking Poking Poking. Cramping...Hope fading. Bloodwork u/s...more poking poking...CD24 I OVULATED!!!!!!!! Wait Wait Wait...cramps coming. Hurting bad. Worse than ever...spotting :banghead: Waited Waited 14dpo...she's late... :pray A test.... could it be? BFP!!!! Beta 50. :clap:
September 11,2006 Our son Shane Michael was born.
September 13, 2006 4 years later to the day of our TTC battle starting...we bring Shane home. (Fate's way of saying she had the last laugh)
Please have hope. Have faith that it will happen. My story is like many others that have had happen endings. Yours will too. My wish..my dream is for everyone to feel this way. Good luck.
At 14 years old I was told I have PCOS. This ment nothing to me. Didn't give a care in the world. My dr said well you are going to have problem TTC. No biggy I don't want kids. I am 14!!!!!! He put me on BCPs and that was that. Then my world changed in 1996 at the age of 16 going on 17 when I met Michael. I knew he was going to be the man that I married and started a family with. If I knew then. What I know now. I wouldn't have taken the BCPs. No point. :rolleyes:
After 4/5 years of being married we said we wanted to have kids. Let's getting a move on. :) Stupid me thought that the month I stopped taking BCPs I would get pregnant. Dumb Dumb Dumb. So at my dr's appointment I mentioned to my dr we were going to start trying, but I was told we would have problems.
September 13,2002 1 year without anything. Company rules. Did it. Hoped Hoped. Nothing.
Year 2. Give me something Doc. Glucophage. What kind of crap is that? Did NOTHING for me. Gave me the poops. Fun for me. So we were on that for another year. Hoped Hoped. Nothing.
Year 3. (Feb 2005) Oh yeah...went to an RE. No OBGYN for me. We are breaking out the big guns. Valentine's Day to remember. Here comes the clomid. Had people tell me...first month there were on it they were pregnant. Oh yeah. Happy me. Popped those pills like they were candy. Stayed on the glucophage too. Hoped Hoped...pin poke on CD17...NOTHING
March (2005) Clomid again. Yeah I can do it. 100mg right. Woohooo. Luck of the Irish right? Bring it on. In goes the candy. On come the hot flashes. Man these suck. I am a big gal. I am hot to begin with. Hoped Hoped..pin poke CD17...Nothing.
April (2005) Clomid again. 150mg. That's the big one. That's the one you hear about. Women get pregnant off of this dosage. Yeah it's going to be my easter present you watch. I am going to have a egg fall. Popped my candy. Freaking hotter than hell...Hoped Hoped..pin poke cd17...NOTHING.
May (2005) Clomid afreakinggain. 200mg. This time...let's add dexamethasone. Suppose to break down your thick walls. Oh yeah...my dr knows what he's doing. Give me my pills. Popped my candy. Can I get a glass of ice water? Hoped Hoped...pin poke cd17...NOTHING
June (2005) Guess what? Clomid again! 250mg w/ dexamethasone. Hell it didn't work last month I am sure it will work this month. :rolleyes: Give me the pills before I kill you. Popped my candy. Sweating my ass off..it's freaking summer...who wants hot flashes and evil mood swings...I do I do. :fuming: Hoped Hoped...pin poke CD17...NOTHING
July(2005) That's it. Can't take it any more, but yes it's....clomid again. 250mg w/ dexamethason. Why give it to me again when it didn't work the pervous month. My dr has balls of steel! Bring on the hot flashes. Popped my candy. Hoped Hoped...pin poke CD17 NOTHING!
August (2005) :bow INJECTIONS! This is it. This is MY MONTH! Repronex. 1 amp every other day. Poking. Poking. Poking. Bloodwork...more Poking Poking HCG TRIGGER! I am going to ovulate for the first time in my life! Wooohooo! Hope Hope...pin poke CD20...NOTHING. :bawl: :banghead: I want to die. HCG trigger makes you ovulate right? Not me. :bawl:
September(2005) Hope is lost. Injections again. 2amps every other day. Poking Poking Poking. Bloodwork and u/s....Nothing. No effect. Cycle Cancel. :bawl:
October (2005) Why try? I look like a druggy. Veins are all messed up. Fighting with DH. Life just sucks. Injections...again. 3amps every other day. It's like injecting mapel syurp in my butt. Poking Poking Poking. Bloodwork u/s....more Poking something is going on...Poking Poking. U/S...cycle cancel. Nothing :bawl: .
November (2005) I am doing this, because I like the torture. Injections 1amp everyday...humm something different. Poking Poking Poking (I use to hate needles) Bloodwork...u/s....ooooh ooooh. Something Something! Hcg Trigger....Hope is coming back. Hoping Hoping...pin poke CD19 I FREAKING OVULATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wait Wait Wait....BFN. I don't care I OVULATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December (2005) We decided that if this month doesn't work. We are taking a break. We are starting to forget what sex for fun is. I can't remember a time when my butt was white and not black and blue. Injections....2amps everyday. Poking Poking Poking. Cramping...Hope fading. Bloodwork u/s...more poking poking...CD24 I OVULATED!!!!!!!! Wait Wait Wait...cramps coming. Hurting bad. Worse than ever...spotting :banghead: Waited Waited 14dpo...she's late... :pray A test.... could it be? BFP!!!! Beta 50. :clap:
September 11,2006 Our son Shane Michael was born.
September 13, 2006 4 years later to the day of our TTC battle starting...we bring Shane home. (Fate's way of saying she had the last laugh)
Please have hope. Have faith that it will happen. My story is like many others that have had happen endings. Yours will too. My wish..my dream is for everyone to feel this way. Good luck.