I just came from another baby shower for someone at work. I feel crazy that I get angry with other women who are able to become pregnant without even trying. I am about 5 ft and 197 lbs. I know I am way too big for the IVF that my DH and I have to use to have children and it drives me crazy that someone who a year ago was yelling she wanted no children is about to deliver in about four weeks. I feel bad for having those emotions, but it doesn't seem fair. I've had someone tell me that God will give me a child in His on time, but it doesn't seem fair that I have to wait for so long. I love my DH and we have a great life but uggggH

Nursing...I can feel your pain. I think all of us have been there. I think anyone that has went through infertility issues...big or small...questions why they had to be put through the torture of trying to concieve when others get pregnant so easily. I don't know how God chooses who gets to go through what, but it does seem unfair. When teenagers are popping out childern left and right while the couple down the street who has been married for years and years can't.

Dr's can be espically cruel towards women who are overweight. Telling them whatever they need to so that they will loose weight first. I don't know the reason behind you having to do IVF. I wish there was something that I could say to make you feel better, but know that you are not alone in the feelings that you have.