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tracygoss
07-13-2006, 09:12 AM
Hi y'all!! My name is Tracy and if you haven't read my bio (that I have not finished), me and my dh have been together going on 9 years and married 6, we were ttc on our own since the beginning. :) However for the last 3 years we have been seeing any DR. that would see us. Here a bit of our story goes.

First we tried the charting....yeah that was A LOT of fun! I don't know who said that practice makes perfect. But they lied.

Then came the endless trips to every GYN/OB in Frederick County. It has been getting to be so much that I have a copy of my chart from EVERY Dr. we have ever been too. When I go to a "new" Dr. I hand over the copies. And they would get this look on their face like "ohhh sh*t". Look at these files what dose she expect ME to do!

4 GYN's gave me meds and said "call us next month when you miss your period". I never missed a single period.

So I bounced back and forth for about 1 1/2 years. From Dr. To Dr. no new news. VERY BORING. Each one saying that it was due to my PCOS. And ohh me being fat!

Finally, one Dr. and me got into a huge yelling match about putting me back on Metophormine (spelling). They wanted to take me off of the Clomid and put me on this med that made me feel like crap. And I just was not going to bounce back and fourth anymore. I wanted answers, like why the hell when my friends look at there s/others they would end up preg. Why was it so hard for me and Will?? Well, he said that he was doing all that he could, if I wanted to I could go to Shady Grove Fertility Science Center and see what they could do for me. So I put back on my clothes and met the lady at the front desk with my referral. Thinking about what a dumb-ass I had been and all those years wasted!!

I contacted SG and got in 3 days later, I had to go and collect another part of the files that are me.

Dr. E met with my husband and I and was very warm. She sent him for a sperm count/annalist, which took me forever to collect from him. I didn't get the big deal, it isn't like he wasn't going to do it anyways, he just needed to aim better!! ;)

Ohhh and the sperm thing was suppose to be hush/hush until we got the result. Dr. E said that he had "Super Sperm". So now it okay that I tell the world.

We went and saw a genetic counselor, who insisted that I have a ultra sound done on my kidney's because of my father having Poly Cystic Kidney Diseases.

Went and had that done and guess what...... I also have PCKD. Sucks to be me. I now tell the Dr.s that I am Poly Cystic everything!

So I had to go see a Kidney Dr. who ordered all these test done, and I did all but the MIR (apparently I am claustrophobic).

Then I had the HSG done. That wasn't too bad. I guess I was expecting the worse, and it wasn't so... I don't know. The assistant that was in with the Dr. looked like she was about to pop, she was asking me how I liked Dr. E and what was new in the office, I was polite but I was like are they friends??? Then I found out that she went and saw Dr. E and had a IUI like I am scheduled for, she got prego the first time. So maybe that is why the HSG didn't hurt so much, I was in fairy-tale land thinking that I was going to be preg. in like 2 mnths. LOL

I went and Dr. E broke the news to me that I was not going to be able to start that month because I didn't get the MIR done and the Kidney Doc would not release me to get preg.

So I found an open MRI, that personally I would suggest to everyone.

The MRI showed that I did not have anything wrong with my brain, so next I had to get a MRI done on my lower part of my body because of the results of the HSG.

The HSG and the MRI showed that I have a Bicornuate Uterus. Which means the uterus has two horns. Reports of miscarriage with a bicornuate uterus show a high rate of about 30 percent. Preterm birth rates in one study were about 20 percent, and fetal growth restriction occurred in about 10 percent. Plus the PCKD leads to high bloodpressure. Now because of this she only wants me to carry singletons.

My first IVF she wants to implant 1 embryo, and if I need a second IVF maybe she will do 2 embryos but the insurance only pays for 3 IVF's per LIVE BIRTH. And (I know keeps getting better huh?!) if I get prego with multiples we are going to have to selectively abort them. She put it nicer but that is what it boils down to.

So she put me on meds....which included the Met formin. And once I got back on and I got use to it, I dropped a lot of weight.

So I did 4 unsuccessful IUI's and planed to do my first IVF.

Got all the meds, did all the classes, bought a house....soooooo...I had to stop because we kinda went over our head with the house. Plus things at work just were not good.

And here I am today. I just started my new job, blood pressure down very good, in a much smaller size and ready to try again. I am going to wait a bit until I am here a bit, but they seem to enjoy me here so I don't think my morning appointments are going to be a problem.

But I almost feel like I am a bad person because something that I wanted so bad I was so close trying for and basically put it on the back burner.

Tracy
4 Failed IUI's 2005-2006
Ready to try again with IVF!!

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Denise27
07-14-2006, 05:47 AM
Tracy

Welcome to the board. You sure have a lot going on. I know its so hard to put things on hold when you were so close. Hope you will be starting soon and the wait wont be long.

Good Luck

Goldie
07-14-2006, 09:50 AM
Keep Your chin up Tracy!! Your BABY dream can come true..I have PCOS..overweight and was told by one dr. to basicly starve myself to lose 100 pounds...then he would TRY and help me. Infertility sucks big time...and it sounds like you are over-due for a streak of good luck..I did go on to lose 89 pounds....because I do believe it does help the meds work better. Just keep on trucking...It is possible!!!!

GO FOR IT!!!! :D

tracygoss
07-14-2006, 08:38 PM
The thing that I don't get is that they don't tell iddy biddy skinny girls, ohh go and gain 30 or so pounds and we will be able to talk about that....

I want nothing more then this in my life, and, I don't know.... I have been thinking about things lately and I am scared to death that it isn't going to happen.

I think about how my husband really wants to have children and if he wasn't with me he would have his children. But if he sticks with me..there is a chance that we may never have children of our own.

I really think way to much into things, I know...it is just that...I have not ever wanted something so bad, and not been able to either get it myself, or have some help getting it.

There is the thing with the IVF too because I only get 3 tries (per the insurance), so I have been like saving the IVF as a LAST resort. Like it is a savings account and I don't want to be without the money!!

Am I just crazy?

Tracy

4 Failed IUI's 2005-2006

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