I had a serious breakdown last week...which I am assuming is normal every now and then based on the posts I've read. It was the first IF breakdown I have had and I still cannot understand how I can cry THAT much. I still had tears last night watching Grey's Anatomy!

ANYWAY....I have been avoiding my Master's thesis for 4 YEARS! I have about 2+ months to finish it and my sister has agreed to help me in a huge way. I have serious serious SERIOUS anxiety about the entire thing and it is pervasive in my life...so much so that I am CERTAIN that in some way it is affecting my chances of conceiving.

SO, I am not stopping TTC but I am stopping focusing on it and coming here for awhile. I am going to re-focus on my thesis and try really hard to be positive and to finish this God forsaken thing!

Wish me luck! I need it desperately! I only hope I can plug through my anxiety and low energy and get this done. If I don't, at least I'll know I tried.

Thanks for being a support for me everyone! Good luck with the weight loss....I am going back to South Beach phase 1 this week b/c of my breakdown last week. Hopefully that will help!

Good Luck! :crossfing Hope you get it done fast and effectively...boy what a load off of you when it is complete. Come back as soon as you can. :D

i understand your little breakdown! 150mg of clomid did it for me. we had to put out dog to sleep this month ,so i cancelled my clomid cycle. that medicine makes me insane for about 7-10 days! IF is very hard to live with and it does get in the way of a lot of things in your life. this month i feel more of myself, even though it was very tough with our dog sick for a week and then putting her to sleep. thank god i cancelled the clomid crazies!!!!
truly , i don't want to go back on that stuff.

goodluck with your future

tmac :hug:

p.s. my worst week i cried 3/4 times a day, i couldn't stand myself

Hi Peata,
I am in graduate school as well. What is your topic and subject area? I help with educational subjects and statistics. My area is bioinformatics. I am working on my doctoral dissertation. Please let me know if I can be of any help to you.

Thanks ladies....

I at least get email notifications about this post! LOL!

Clar...good for you doing your dissertation! I thought at one point that would be my route but there is NO way in hell I am continuing after this lengthy fiasco!

My subject area is environmental studies/parks research. I am in the midst of completing a report for my practicum that was essentially due 3 years ago and is pretty useless at this stage. Luckily for me my supervisor for that project is nice and is going to let me complete it anyway just for credit. My thesis supervisor is an ass. BUT he has been nicer lately probably b/c I was showing signs of jumping back on board and all credit was not lost for him.

Anyway, thanks for the offer.

Take care!

Good luck Paeta with the thesis. IF breakdowns are buggers but needed every now and then ! See you when you return.