hi everyone,

the ER will be any day now and I'm starting to REALLY freak out
about it. i don't know how to get the fears and anxieties out of my head. I'm
nervous about everything about it; the speculum going in for the freezing
needle, the needle going in to freeze the area; the probe going in; the needle
going through the ovary ... everything! It's like my mind is taking over and I
can't seem to stop the fears. To be honest, i feel terrified.

I keep telling myself i'm not the first, won't be the last but i think it's a
combination of fear of the unknown and my existing fears and anxieties around
pain/needles etc.

I don't know what to do to get through it. any advice? how did you get through it? was it as painful as i've got mysel thinking it will be? how conscious of the pain are you etc.?

thanks

peace prof

Peace -

Will they be using twilight anestegia? Thats what I had with my ER and of course I didnt feel a thing, I was in and out for the whole procedure, which was over in no time. Afterwards, I was a little crampy and sleepy but that was it, felt 100% the next day. Just try and relax, you have so many emotions going through you right now. Take a deep breath and think of the positive outcome you may have in the end.

Good luck and keep us posted!

:hug:

Kelly

I also had anesthesia during my ER and was completely out. I woke up a little sleepy, but was in no pain at all. You'll do just fine!! Have faith in yourself and think positive thoughts! Hugs!

ER was awful!

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Hi everyone,

Thanks again for all the emails putting my mind at ease about the ER. I had it yesterday afternoon and unfortunately it was awful!!

They gave me twilight sedation which they said would be deeper than conscious sedation. I don't know how to explain it but i was DEFINITELY not sedated! They even gave me gas and i FELT EVERYTHING! i was fully conscious throughout the whole retrieval and felt every little thing that was done to me. With the twilight, they gave me gas, then fentanol in the bum, and in the IV as well as some other drug. I kept asking for more and they gave me more but at one point the anaesthesiologist said he can't give me more. Oh, it was awful. I wonder if the morphine/valium would have worked better after all.

I think they were quite surprised and concerned but there was nothing to be done about it ... they had to get the eggs out before the HCG made them ovulate so i just bit the bullet, and screamed and cried my way through it until it was over.

I did some research on the net after to see if there are people who are resistant to sedation. Found a couple of articles but not much.

Anyway ... my worse fears came true.

Keep your fingers crossed for me. After all that yesterday, I"m really nervous about the transfer.

Have any of you experienced this sort of sedation resistance or heard of someone like that? Any thoughts on what might have happened?

The good news is they got 9 eggs and we're hoping a good number of them have survived the fertilization and will continue to thrive

The other good news is i got my progesterone shot this morning ( i was really nervous about that too) and managed that okay.

Thank you all again for your advice, support and comfort through this. I'll let you know how the embryos are doing. (i guessi need to update my bio now)

hugs
peaceprof