Aloha ladies! I don't post that often but I really need to vent. Today is cd 32, didn't get a positive OPK and now no aunt flo (she never shows up without provera!) My cd 21 progest was 1.11, up from 0.27 last month. So that might be a step in the right direction. I guess I was hoping the met would be a miracle drug and help clomid work this time. We are a military family and due to my husband's job he is gone a lot and we only have a few more months before he is going to be gone again. It seems like every woman from our command is prego right now. It is everyday that someone calls me to inform me of another one. My SIL is preg too!! To top it all off, my girlfriend that I grew up with called me two weeks ago and asked if she could fly to the island to dry out from her drug habit and recover from an abortion she just had!! Being the friend I am I couldn't tell her no. So she has been here for two weeks. Definitly putting a damper on my positive cycle thoughts. I could just scream!! My next apt is July 13 and my RE said we are going to consider injectables. My mom is flying out with her new boyfriend in the middle of the next cycle... I think it is time to stop answering my phone and focus only on getting a BFP. Thanks ladies. It helps to get this out, my poor hubby. He is so great, but he needs a break from my constant crying.

Sorry bobbie. I hope things look up for you. It must be terrible to ttc with pcos and a husband that just can't have BMS whenever the calender says.

I think its great that you are not being judgmental about your friend. She seems to have her own private h*ll right now. You do seem a little stressed, maybe not answering the phone wouldn't be such a bad idea.

All of our poor DHs. The first emotional breakdown I had in front of him, messed him up pretty bad. Bless his heart, now he just gives me a hug and says he is going to walk the dog. There is absolutely nothing that can be said to make me feel better. Plus, once the water works start I kinda just "leak" for the next several hours.

I've had those waterworks today too!! In fact, my husband has been walking the dog for a few hours now. LOL

I guess we all need to just hang in there. I've had everyone around me either announcing their pregnancy or showing up with newborns. It's hard to be nice and happy for them, but I try!!

Have a good holiday!

Thank you for the kind words. I am really trying, as I know we all are. It is just so nice to be able to get it all out without all the million questions that comes people who really don't get it. If one more of my husbands co-workers tells me I just need to relax I am going to scream. I have promised my DH I am going to calm down. We have a great weekend planned, with concerts at Kaneohe and fireworks at Pearl Harbor. Should be a lot of fun. Maybe we can all stop the tears long enough to enjoy the holiday.

Joslin I am from KY too. I really miss it sometimes. What part are you from?

I know what you mean bobbie when people say just relax you're trying too hard. I know it must be rude but I have started responding that IF is not just a matter of "relaxing" and could they give me some tips on what they consider not trying so hard. I know people are just trying to be sympathetic but if they are stupid enough to continually make comments about how I'm not getting any younger and I need to hurry up and do something and am I charting my cycles, etc, etc, etc. , then they deserve any response that falls out of my mouth. I don't know if its that I am getting older or the constant stress of the IF but I have started responding quite matter of factly here lately.

I understand completely, being military my husband has to jump through hoops and give every detail of what we are going through to get a day off to do iui, or drs apt so EVERYONE knows our buisness. Even knowing how we are struggling they still seem to feel the need to give me there 2 cents. I guess that is just part of it. It shouldn't be, but it is. I think did a good job this weekend avoiding stupid people. We had a bbq and all the new babies as well as a few pg mommies were here at our house. I put on my happy face and had a good time playing Auntie Bobbie. :)

:grouphug: I think we deserve it with all the crap we have to put up with!